Emotional pain can be much worse than physical pain and can even create physical pain due to the emotional trauma. No, I am not traumatized by my new job but I do feel less 'fulfilled'. I absolutely love working at WJCC. It is very rewarding and I have learned so much. Maybe I am so attached because it was my first nursing job or maybe I am just impossibly addicted to the innocent love and trust these beautiful people have for me every day that I am there. I was there 5 days a week but due to my new full-time job I cut back to only 2 days. It breaks my heart. I miss my residents when I am away from them. Why did I decide to leave? WJCC is my first job and is not a skilled facility. Being a Registered Nurse I I cannot fulfill the skills that I worked so hard to become at this current facility. Moving up to a skilled facility not only allows me to regain my RN skills but it also generated more $$. I worked really hard to be where I am today and I deserve the compensation for my hard work and dedication to my career. I'm not saying that WJCC isn't compensating well but moving up from a Intermediate facility to a Skilled facility makes a big difference in the financial department.
To make a long story short I really do love my old job and I really and truly ache for them the longer I am away from them. No one can care for them as much as I can (at least that is how I feel).
Have you ever walked away from something you love? Have you ever chose growth over the safety?